An empty pod

Today, I cleared my desk and cupboards of all personal items. There was a big load of stuff that shall find its way home now. It is remarkable how easily we make ourselves at home anywhere. I had original bill copies submitted in February lying around here and so many artefacts that I cannot count all beautifying my desk. Books gifted by ex-colleagues, books returned by colleagues, all finding a place in my shelf. Today, I emptied them and they shall go back home with me.
I now live in a sterile empty pod till I am altogether out of this place. A forgotten face, an unknown number...

Good Weekend

I had a great week end. I met a couple of friends on Friday night. Saturday morning was a nice drive to Siddhivinayak temple, darshan and then on to Marine drive for a walk. Stopped over for tasty sandwich ice-creams at K Rustom and back home on a lovely drive once again. Nostalgia and emotions all over the place.

Ended the morning with a little bit of shopping. That night went to see Angels & Demons. An interesting movie albeit with too much violence. I was wondering what parents were doing getting 10 year olds to such a movie. The movie theater did not stop them either. Am not sure how responsible we are as a people when we behave like this.

Anyways, i certainly enjoyed the movie.

Sunday evening we went on another long trip to Tituwala. Our temple visit started with a rare view of the God without any of the decoration "nirmalya darshan" followed by the entire sequence of dressed and then aarti.

Ofcourse the drive to the temple itself was fabulous. Followed this with a stop over at Choki dani. A Rajasthani mela and food place. Fun filled evening enjoying the rustic village setting.

Lovely dancers and extra heavy food :(

But the week end was wonderful.

tergiversation

I learnt about a new word today. Tergiversation has two meanings. One is the act of abandoning a party or cause. What I feel that I am doing to my site by leaving. :|


I am really scared for my site and can only hope that my tergiversation shall not impact it adversely.

The other meaning is "The act of practicing evasion or of being deliberately ambiguous." What I feel some people here are masters at ;) I do suppose that moving ahead I am going to find that the world is full of such people and there it is no big deal if someone is ambiguous so as to avoid being an outright liar.

Leaving

Once again some one burst into tears at the thought of my leaving. And today even I felt guilty. I felt like I was leaving a child with no protection to weather the storms.
I got a single plastic red rose from a bouquet on her table as a gift to take away. I shall always treasure it for the memory of a young girl who trusted that I will be there for her and still wished me when I said I had to go...

I don't know how to take away the guilt. I wish the rains come and take away these feelings of loss.
:(